Thursday, November 15, 2007
dark chocolate
i was revisiting the ideas of that girl that was me
who in May moved into that address on her own.
im a bit startled by the notes she scribbled there.
i look at her accusingly
like she has performed the ultimate betrayal.
she then explains to me that it startles her too, this everything.
she is startled that loneliness is real.
and that it cramps sneakily when changing channels 11pm.
she is startled that distress, she has plenty of them.
enough to skip a cup of tea, enough to forget making phonecalls,
and doing right things right.
so perhaps im being a little too hard on her.afterall im startled by the depth of love that im capable of
as i find myself holding a wealth of memories
and taking them places with me
like all things bittersweet.
ill try to listen to her for once.
Posted by nidya at Thursday, November 15, 2007
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Monday, November 05, 2007
instant noodle
Long before I booked tickets, bought chocolates
and packed my suitcase for Jakarta,
I remembered worrying about how October was going to unfold.
How it would be the month of catching-ups.
And how catching-up means Questions.
Questions are caring and so nice to being asked.
But they can be intimidating sometimes.
I worried because I know I havent got the perfect replies
to some important FAQs.
Like career. Like future plans.
But turned out October was full of answers.
It was relaxing and thoughtful,
a feast of fun stuffs, gratitudes, and good luck wishes..
a feast from Nasi bakar to Jimbaran..
My humble
thank yous to my dear family and friends.
Im sorry I couldnt catch-up with every single one of you.
My thoughts are with you.
Now it feels like a different Melbourne.
I am feeling better.
Thanks to all the questions asked.
More than anything they were full of love.
Posted by nidya at Monday, November 05, 2007
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